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kossai ([personal profile] kossai) wrote2025-08-30 02:58 pm

augh .

well , unable to access nekoweb at all right now , but do not see anyone anywhere complain of inability to visit nekoweb . this might be kossai-side problem , in which case ... not actually sure how to fix , or whether or not can ever visit again ! freetube site is broken for kossai this same way and never find fix , just lucky freetube is also on github .

so like ... yay . not update in long while anyway , especially now that nekoweb change some of systems which really do not want to mess with , but that really suck .

can anyone else visit nekoweb.org and confirm functional ? if so , is there any news that might indicate change ?
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kossai ([personal profile] kossai) wrote2025-08-29 10:53 am

aw man ...

spoilers for current life series , past life . minecraft video stuff , for those unaware . :P


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mads ([personal profile] beehaiku) wrote2025-08-27 10:17 am

ugh core classes set up with freshmen are so condescending. like i'd be offended even as a freshman but i'm on year 5 of undergrad now T_T
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mads ([personal profile] beehaiku) wrote2025-08-26 03:36 pm

made it to class yesterday and today.. was like three min late today because i didn’t know the room had changed and went to the wrong building (on the other side of campus -_-). i feel okay, kind of confident but also nervous about keeping up with my attendance because i can tell it’s going to be really important this semester. alison’s parents are coming by for a visit with no warning and i’ve never met them so idk what to do there.. they’re just checking on alison because i think they’re a little worried but i don’t know if i’m expected to meet them or what. i’m nervous they will try to hospitalize alison out of worry, and i’m especially nervous because the local hospital is privately owned and i’ve heard it sucks badly
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alyaza ([personal profile] alyaza) wrote2025-08-25 11:08 am
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brief thoughts on public housing and how it did not die, but was killed

Alyaza Birze (August 25, 2025)

earlier this month i read There Is No Place for Us: Working and Homeless in America by Brian Goldstone; in the course of that reading, a section of Part Two stood out as demonstrating many of the worst, most ghoulish aspects of housing politics today. today we're going to focus on one of these aspects: the intentional murder of public housing.

i'm sure most of my audience doesn't need me to tell them that public housing was intentionally murdered; however, you might be unfamiliar with how this was done in practice. it was not just that public housing—over a number of presidential administrations—was racialized into housing suitable only for non-whites; that public housing was stigmatized as poverty-stricken, portrayed as crime-infested, described as full of drug-addicts and degenerates, and written off as “monstrous, depressing places,” in the words of Richard Nixon; or that public housing was defunded by a thousand, bipartisan cuts. it was that public housing, in many cases, was violently dismantled by capital in the service of profit—a neoliberal spin on the "slum clearance" of old. case in point, Atlanta, which Goldstone notes served as the model for contemporary dismembering of existing public housing stock:

[Beginning in 1994] Atlanta Housing Authority embarked on an ambitious campaign to dismantle the city’s public housing. Democratic mayor Bill Campbell appointed Renée Glover, a former Wall Street lawyer, to serve as the CEO of the agency. Under her leadership, AHA showed little interest in refurbishing Atlanta’s dilapidated projects, where a remarkable 13 percent of the city’s population (and 40 percent of schoolchildren) were living—a greater proportion than in any other American city. Rather, the agency rebranded itself as a “diversified real estate company” and took on the new mission of creating entire communities “from the ground up,” as Glover put it—which meant tearing down public housing complexes, giving eligible families vouchers, and enlisting private developers to build, own, and manage mixed-income communities where the projects had once stood.

But AHA’s innovations didn’t stop there. Inspired by efforts at the federal level to move people from “welfare to work,” AHA became the first housing authority in the country to impose a strict work requirement on its beneficiaries. These measures, declared an admiring column in The Atlanta Journal-Constitution, had turned the city’s housing authority into a “conservative’s dream.” When Glover described her approach as revolutionary, she wasn’t exaggerating. The Atlanta Model, as it came to be known, was soon adopted as the blueprint for redevelopment in Chicago, Miami, and a number of other major cities.

the beauty of this mass-privatization for capital was the immense value and profit it provided to all of its participants—with the exception of actual tenants, who were left to flounder at the whims of the housing market and almost wholly cleansed from their long-time neighborhoods. particularly indicative of the fate of social housing tenants was what happened to the Techwood Homes project (once the pride of the Public Works Administration). despite "$1 billion of private investment that poured into the area" after its demolition in 1995—or rather, because of that $1 billion in private investment—the vast, vast majority of its tenants were displaced in favor of upscale tenants from which a much greater profit could be derived. again, quoting Goldstone,

In Atlanta, as in other booming cities where apartment vacancies were at an all-time low and rents in the private market were soaring, [Section 8] voucher holders suddenly found themselves competing for fewer and fewer eligible units. Many voucher-accepting landlords saw that they could extract greater profits from unassisted tenants.

to say nothing of the aforementioned stigmatization of public housing tenants (and low-income tenants generally), which wrought consequences far beyond the bounds of public housing projects like Techwood Homes. even though Section 8 was—in effect—a compromise with capital, capital-holders fought obliged participation in the program and, through the decades between the New Deal and present day, grew increasingly oppositional to the tenants reliant upon it for shelter. when Techwood Homes was demolished—along with every other public housing project in Atlanta—it reflected the belief that people dependant on Section 8 are not worthy of anything. there is no money to be made off of them; they are not responsible enough to deserve shelter, even from the government.

the result has been exactly what you would expect. even before the onerous requirements applied to voucher holders, many privately-operated apartments simply do not take Section 8 and render the value of holding a voucher moot. the "socioeconomic mobility" that is ostensibly offered by Section 8 is totally vaporous under market conditions, because a Section 8 tenant is invariably a unit operated at a relative loss for a landlord when the precious few vacant units to go around are a profiteer's dream. in the absence of public housing, there is no possibility here but a sort of social purification.

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kossai ([personal profile] kossai) wrote2025-08-25 08:27 am

communication in dreams

in dreams , kossai have ... 4 ways ? that communicate with characters .

tie in first place for most common is : telepathy , and just nothing at all . telepathy - able to just project thoughts for dream characters to hear , dream characters do not comment on this as odd or anything . nothing at all - kossai do not need to communicate , dream characters just implicitly know what need and react accordingly .

second place : sign . find that still often likely to be nonsensical when examine in reality , but characters understand just fine .

third place : voice . least common by far . this voice do not usually resemble reality , and often come with other features like stutter or slowdown .

honourable mention to : AAC device . not actually use AAC device to communicate in dreams so much as AAC device is plot device occasionally . this is likely because AAC device require at least some level of read in order to use , and kossai can not read nor use technology accurately in dreams . more likely to show up in dreams that , for example , AAC device was stolen , or AAC device malfunction . but still able to perfectly communicate with dream characters through other means . silliness .

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kossai ([personal profile] kossai) wrote2025-08-24 03:21 pm

feel like good to say again

sometimes leave comments in inbox without answers , because of struggle to put thoughts and answers into words . still , always appreciate and like to read :D
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dismallyOriented ([personal profile] dismallyoriented) wrote2025-08-23 04:31 pm

The Icariad: A Tierlist of Songs called "Icarus"

On a brief roadtrip to pick up my second partnersys from the airport, "Icarus" by CHRISTON came up on shuffle. My wife made a joke about the Crane Wives being on testosterone now, in reference to their own "Icarus" song as the band she was more familiar with. This sparked a rabbithole of looking up every single song titled "Icarus" currently available on spotify. The result was a 90 min playlist and this corresponding tier list.

You can listen to the playlist here. Youtube mirror may be forthcoming.

Requirements for the playlist and tierlist
  • Title must be "Icarus" and only "Icarus". Songs with additional words in the title are disqualified and cannot be included in the Icariad.[1]
  • Not every song was included; songs that were classified as "Singles" didn't get added mostly because I wasn't sure how to do it without accidentally just starting the song itself
  • Songs are ranked on two axes. First is overall song quality, second is on the quality of reference to Icarus (Icarusity, if you will). References were judged by:
    • Whether they directly said Icarus's name or not
    • The degree to which they captured the story
    • The effectiveness of how they utilized the metaphor

Rankings obviously differed by the individual participant - where we had disagreements, I will clarify the ratings and reasoning behind them.

Commence the Icariad )
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malymin ([personal profile] malymin) wrote2025-08-23 04:43 pm
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A few notes on TS4 fairies

  • I only saw the special interactions with mermaids/werewolves occur when I taught my fairy the "cure/apply ailment" perk. Once you can use it, you occasionally get unplayed mermaids asking you to hydrate them (filling the Hydration motive) or werewolves asking you to soothe them (emptying the Fury meter), but you can also use these interactions on werewolves and mermaids in your own household. So fairies make good room-mates, spouses, etc for werewolves and mermaids.
  • Using "soothe the beast" on a werewolf seems to count as a positive interaction for the purposes of the "warm force gain" passive, and thus builds up emotional force instead of draining it. Same is true of "water therapy" on mermaids.
  • Fairies also have a special power for vampires, but this is just... curing vampirism to turn them into a normal sim, so not helpful if you want to keep a vampire as a vampire.
  • Fairies' "nurture nature" ability is currently the only occult power that directly helps pet-sims (cats, dogs, horses), making them the best pet owner of any occult. Meanwhile, spellcasters can't cast Scruberoo on pet-sims, even though both person-sims and object-pets (livestock, etc) are valid targets.
  • Interacting with pets counts for the purposes of "warm force gain." Haven't tested livestock yet.
  • Gathering and using fairy dust builds up fairy experience, even if it's gathered and used in a way that's also available to non-fairies.
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mads ([personal profile] beehaiku) wrote2025-08-22 03:45 pm

classes start monday! i have an 8:30am TR and a 9am MWF, so i’m nervous about waking up more than anything else. it’s been a lifelong struggle to get out of bed in the morning for me and now the chronic fatigue makes it 10x harder, but i care a lot so i’m really going to try. i get so frustrated i could cry waking up at noon every day and i just don’t know what to do about it :( i’ve tried pretty much everything and it’s still a rare thing for me to wake up before 11am. idk, all i can do is try. i just have a looming pessimism about it, but i’m trying not to do the thing where i let the past define the future. as far as my actual classes go i think this semester will be easier than last semester, although one of my classes will be both challenging and time consuming. much less drawing though, thank god—i love drawing, but not from life and NOT on a deadline
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kossai ([personal profile] kossai) wrote2025-08-20 06:31 am

make and make and make

really on this journal game kick now and just ... keep on come up with ideas . not everything get full creation so far , but barrier is comparatively lower than even twine games , so with enough time and energy can actually get through some of these fairly quick .

have kind of funny mix feelings on this , almost ? want to make lots of things , as many of these ideas as possible , because love these ideas and can not find others quite same . but do not want to feel like overproduce and burn out , or to rush things because done now even if not necessarily best state . but also like , shit , really not able to slow down brain like this - brain is on roll , until not .

but genuinely have so many things up for people to look at now that literally run out of colours for analytics graphs and some games have to share colours - and that would be fair with catalogue of years , but this is after like . 1 week . fully aware this pace is silly and unsustainable ! but brain just say , yay fun to make ! and is not otherwise concern .

do not really care to sustain any sort of quota regardless - will upload when upload and not upload when not - but just feel kind of weird about this . happy to make things , happy to get things up , and do not want to spend endless time on pick those things for perfection . guess just also do not want to go other way and make things that turn out terrible . that balance , though ... brain is not good at that .
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malymin ([personal profile] malymin) wrote2025-08-19 08:27 pm
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The ship-of-theseus nature of a constantly updated game is a bit strange...

Honestly, I feel similarly about indie games that get massive free updates (like Stardew Valley), not just big budget corporate games like The Sims 4.

For better or worse, you were largely stuck with the base game being as-is for 90's and 00's PC games. These means you could rely on things always working the same without specific gameplay elements being changed out from under you, but it also meant that bugs would often be left to fester in perpetuity...

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mads ([personal profile] beehaiku) wrote2025-08-19 02:31 pm

a pinko fibers cd (staring at yourself in death’s mirrored face) and a pressed sunflower with pinko fibers’s symbol sketched on the paper

two .7mL luckyscent samples: odeur 53 - comme des garons and psychdlique - jovoy


two gabby fluke-mogul cds: love songs and throw it in the sink
recent treats! bandcamp friday was august 1st and i saved up a bit to get the things i wanted all at once. i got two gabby fluke-mogul cds, knife play by xiu xiu (not pictured), the pinko fibers album cd and a pressed plant, and a bunch of digital files (from memory: pinko fibers’s discography, the rest of glial cells’s discography, bedtime stories - you will not judge who i become, faetooth - …an invocation, and the digital files that came with each cd). i’m planning to burn cds of …an invocation and you will not judge who i become because neither album comes as a cd!! i also got the storm by five point palm exploding heart technique at a show :) it’s definitely their best yet. i’m moving off of spotify because the ceo sucks so i’m transferring to foobar2000, which also has a (kind of shitty) mobile app. it may not be the best but being able to listen on my phone is super important to me, so i’m just grateful it exists! all the files i’ve purchased are on their as well as a bunch i haven’t ;) i’m also doing my part and uploading my more obscure bands to slsk. the learning curve isn’t as steep as it seems so this is my official endorsement of music piracy :) anyway, the other treat is two samples of perfumes (well, one is a eau de toilette) from luckyscent. i’ve been obsessed with @/fragranticareviewers on tumblr and the blog got me curious about a couple scents. alison and i cracked the samples open today and each fell in love with one of them. alison really likes odeur 53 by comme des garçons (enough to stare longingly at the 200mL bottle) and says it smells like the band ivy. i really love psychédélique by jovoy, it smells like chocolate cake covered in dirt just as the fragrantica reviews promised. a well-balanced musky but sweet scent that works really well with my skin. it’s a little offputting which is exactly what i want in a fragrance. i think maybe if i lean into the more “eccentric” aspects of my personality i might actually be better at attracting cool people and repelling people i wouldn’t mesh with.. be authentically you and all. i’m finally starting to get out there and talk to people and i think confidence is probably going to be key in making friendships stick. anyway, there’s my long rambling fragrance review and music haul! ♪
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mads ([personal profile] beehaiku) wrote2025-08-19 02:19 pm
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current mood: good but my back hurts!
current music: white noise from the fan lol
current beverage: just water
current activity: waiting for the aleve to kick in, then going to the library
goal for today: believe it or not i am still drawing fossils -_-
i’m looking forward to… reading more of my book! i’m rereading the earthsea cycle
i’m feeling grateful for… the library!!! free place to work with books aplenty
notes: i’m getting deadlines anxiety with the summer homework but i have to remember it’s okay if it doesn’t all get done. i still have just over a month and i’m over halfway done, so i think i’m getting pretty close to securing a solid passing grade if i haven’t already. i want to finish since just managing to DO it practically guarantees an A, but with the challenges the assignments pose to my mental struggles (ocd) and physical struggles (back pain) means that i need to be kind to myself if things don’t work out the way i’m hoping they will. in the meantime i just have to keep trying! school starts next week and i have early classes this semester, which i’m really nervous about. i know i’ll be fine if i can keep my attendance up, but mornings are a huge struggle with the chronic fatigue and i’m scared i’ll have trouble getting to class. i’m hoping the motivation to do well will be enough, but a sort of pessimism is looming over me that i’m having troubp

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kossai ([personal profile] kossai) wrote2025-08-19 10:40 am

pet peeve

people assume dyslexia support means " dyslexic friendly " font and nothing else . not even useful for everyone , and dark mode can be especially dyslexia unfriendly . also astigmatism .

fucking hate those fonts , for kossai uneven weight make much harder to read in most cases .
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malymin ([personal profile] malymin) wrote2025-08-18 07:00 pm

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Does anyone know of any like, critical theory writings on... I guess "madness coding" of villians and antagonists in fiction?

Like how antagonists are often queercoded to invoke normative audiences' disgust for female masculinity and male effimacy, sex between members of the same gender, any kind of gender "boundary crossing" ranging from drag and crossdressing to transgender and intersex bodies (and a refusal to even care about the differences between these groups), etc. The way marginalized audiences may identify with and rehabilitate these archetypes and characters, or even create them in times and place where they're the only allowed form of queerness in mainstream media.

I know there's a lot of writing on queercoded villians, and on how antagonist factions in fantasy settings may be racially coded even if they're not physically members of real ethnic groups - the way Rowling's goblins are antisemitic, that Orcs in fantasy are often invoking antiblack and anti-native cultural tropes, et cetera. There's also some theory on physical disability and villian-coding, from what I understand, though there should probably be more.

But how can I begin to find writings, on, like... how if a work of fiction wants you to believe a character is evil and impossible to reason with, they'll make them "crazy" or "insane" or "mad." They'll invoke an "inhuman" lack of empathy, they'll give them an "evil split personality", or they'll make them hallucinate and have delusions and odd tics. Even if they don't label the character as having a specific mental illness diagnosis (or slur for such), they'll give them traits associated with the most stigmatized mental conditions to signify that they're monsters.

And where can I find more writings that talk about how this is ableism, in depth??? Rather than taking for granted that it's totally fine to treat mental illness symptoms and evil as synonymous?

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kossai ([personal profile] kossai) wrote2025-08-18 01:45 pm
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fae gender

after think , and think , and think some more , and really struggle ... decide that best format for faerie gender game idea would actually be 36 word lyric game .
so , fae gender ! use small selection of words to describe gender ... of course , maybe choose to use rules as part of word table too , classic fae loophole after all ;D

look toward forest - beast dance beneath moon , wild blossom sleep within ...